sorry for look like i'm so desperate

hi readers~ sorry for a month without any posts. i have to go to my school and starting new grade as the last graders on high school, 12th a good news because i've done my 11th years but a bad news because i feel i'm not that ready to finish and start something new. i know i've been on my safe side for a long time for about 12 years and yes i know i do not have those huge mental to face another part of growing up. i just err not ready yet, but i will and i am.!

sorry for greeting you with such a sad post but i promise you a grateful post after this one, i just need to share.
i meet someone new from my school, my junior he kind of badboy with cute face just like another badboy. i know i won't let myself fall for him, so i'm not. I give him chances but i know that's just too much. i let him in too far, i let me fall too deep. i know it's in short time and yes my feeling is not that big, but yes (hell you) i have a crush on you.! a medium one. i know i can't tell lies and i know his mouth full of potion words so, i think i'll give him a chance. but, no no wait~ he meet another girl from his class, start making conversation behind me while he promise me almost anything. almost anything means anything a complete package of being boyfriend of mine. but rules are rules~ badboy&playboy kinda same and he's the complete package of it.i tell him i do have a crush on him but he tell me he love that girl much bigger than me, i laugh for my stupidity. i won't lie i hurt but i'm not even crying because i know it's not even a love, a real one of feeling i've had before. so yes i kinda hurt but it's okay i just need to tell the world like i always do then i'll give my best smile to them :) or some laugh for them. :D


i heal myself,i do thanks God for this thing because i know, i even know better that God loves me and God just want to save me from another painful time. :) so yes, that door? i've close it again with such a copper-iron big door with many securities i know i'm not ready yet for any relationship :D

xxx,MQ

my sweet 17th ~('o'~)

June 22nd 2012 :D  begin with this

at this day i get my final report for my semester :) and alhamdulillah i'm on 7th from 34th :D not just that this day i'm on my 17th and yes i celebrate it with eat and pray together at the orphan foundation. i celebrate it with some of my bestfriends :) and how it feels too awesome to talk with :) so here's some picture from this day :3

i wear uptown girl t-shirt, unbranded penguintailskirt, unbranded hijab ._.
and here's what my friends give to me :D

with my little brother, we called him curly boy :3 lol~
i love all the gifts :D it's all what i want. once again Alhamdulillah and i hope i'll be better this year aamiin.
thanks again for reading.
xxx,MQ

happy birthday my one and only father :D

at first i was piss off because he push me to eat vegetables and fruits. He push me to eat it even if it's bitter. He told me if i didn't want to eat veggies i'll have many gray hair as he have, but i don't mind because it's not a big deal for me. Now? i know he's right i got an inflamed on my large intestine because i eat veggies rarely, it's hurt so bad and i know my father was right. The doctor said if i still didn't want to eat veggies, sooner i'll get inflamed on appendix and get an operation. I cried and realize what he said was right, so from now on i would like to eat veggies and fruits because i'd like to see my parents have the bigger smile than today seeing my success. aamiin :D
and the last
he's the first gentleman i've ever know.
happy birthday my father, i love you :*

i love moustache :{D

*moustache here stand for a cute image that look like a mustache. not the real mustache*
my love to this image start when i see this meme on 9gag

this meme always appear and i start loving the shape of this cute moustache~. gaggers keep talking this meme and showing post about this "moustache" *i guess you know how to read this* ._. 

then, yesterday when i open "kawanku" magazine one of Indonesian teenager magazine i saw an article "an ode to le moustache" it's show the readers about how to make a moustache canvas bag. i feel my creativity nerves on my body start pushing me to do it so i start with:

- take my white and orange plain bag

- take acrylic paint (black)

- take a little brush

- a pencil

the steps are :

- draw moustache and write "le moustache" on the bag with pencil

- if you see it's good enough than take a brush and paint it with acrylic paint

-slowly but sure give your bag a cute ending. i give mine writing of "like a sir"

-that's all.! wait for your bag to get dry and it's ready to use :{D 

here's mine:

i made mine from old backpack and handbag :{D. is it cute? :{3 thankyou "kawanku" for inspiring me.

nb. pssssst photo of mine using one of this will catch up

thankyou again readers.

xxx,MQ.

ARE YOU GODDESS OR SOMETHING?

people make mistakes, deal with it. i make mistakes, you too. nobody perfect and you're not a God. stop judging,spread love. everyone is a beauty queen in their own way and you have no right to judge it.!

bitches~ day out._.

so long readers~ :D
today i just suprised my old friend~ @nandsafira with cake and gifts :)
we celebrate it late actually because we want look like we forget.

so this is i'm saying Fira happy birthday and wish for her the best that she could get :) aamiin

then i've a supriseeee~ ~('o'~)
after celebrating fira's we go to my house. at my house we pray and reading my magazine while i'm watching gossip girl, then they start entering my room and sitting on my bed. my room isn't big enough it's just 3x3 metres, so it's too small for 5 of us inside there. some of them sleeping and some others reading._. what's so sad of us is one of us go home earlier because she have to go home after magrib._. you missed it nggi.!!

Then the mess start~ *black metal song backsound*
they start with reading my old messages on my phone. hacked my twitter account both from phone and laptop. here's some of the mess._.

they tweeted more than 20 in less than an hour what an achievement.! -,- *standing applause*

we continued with talk whatever we want and tweet whatever they hear from me, taking picture with all of those crazy and silly act. here's some of them :3

it's so mess up after they left my necklaces on my bed, magazine all over my room, perfume and roll on on my bed,laptop and handphone,camera ._. completely a mess.!!

well, call me urban but i regret nothing :D this is the best night i've been through this few days after exam and i looooooveee them as deep as the deepest trough in the entire world :D

dear girl,bitches~ i regret nothing tonight. Happy birthday Rista Nandya Safira you've been shared a really good night with us all.! big hug,kisses.
XXX,MQ

a good day to start a new month :)

welcome June i glad to meet you again this year big hug as always ({}) June is the middle of the year and it is always be my month :* so i didn't plan for any celebration to start this new month but fortunately my beloved friends @anggindyr accompanied me all day :3 go walk to the cafe, online shopping, watching gossip girl, chit chat, finding flower for school, riding all over the town, being my photographer today and last but not least save me from my no-moveon movement ._.
straight to the point on my no-move on movement, me and anggi sit on a edge of a fishpond (the fishpond near the beach). we start chitchat each other and i realize of a cute boy sitting alone and fishing. i try to look on his face and iknewhisfaceisjustlikemyexthatistilldon'tgetusedtooverhim . we both keep staring at him and sometimes when we caught, we get our eyes move to the other side :p. fishing is boring so i realized some of boys there smoke but the boy that we both keep staring isn't have any of those so i said to anggi, "nggi? even he don't smoke" i feel a little amazed note in my voice. Anggi realized that it's not good for me so she straight said "let's go home" *wait,wait,wait.!? what are you doing?* "saving you.! come on.!" *err, k,agree* and i just realize how sweet she is :p she realized that moveon movement that i want to do will ruin because of this only boy :D haha thankyou anggi~ :3
here's what i wear today :)

another one~

all i wear are unbranded i got my lovely red shoes from Bandung and anggi's headband. i just so in love with that headband :0 

i love the second photo because it's kinda of weird in positive :p as always my mother took the picture,

but here's new~

this picture took by @anggindyr and it's kind of amazing and i love it thankyou anggi~ bighug ({})

and i'll get a week full of final exam, 

your prayer means a lot for me :) please? thankyou hahais:)

still and always, XXX,MQ